The Closing Argument

I was looking through some of these entries that I wrote, and a lot of it is so ridiculous. God, why are we so crazy in adolescence and/or young adulthood? I'm better in the sense that I'm not so insane anymore and I'm not analyzing every detail like I used to, but just because all that's subsided I wonder if I have found happiness. I am definitely content, and the fact that I'm not crazy anymore only helps, but I guess I still question if I've found happiness. I guess that reason for that is because I feel that there is something definitely lacking in my life. I know what it is, but I don't seem to have the wit to fix it.

I think the only reason I'm updating is that I want for whoever or whichever random person that stumbles onto this for the first time, to not wonder what became of me. I think it's nice to have "closure" so this is probably my closing for this blog. I turned out normal enough and I'm not bat shit crazy anymore. and I don't think all the time, which often resulted in me thinking how awesome I was that I was looking into myself, and i was trying to change, and making discovery about  myself... I'm so glad I'm not like that anymore.

I'm balanced. I'm normal. The only thing I really would want to change about myself is that I wish I knew how to respond in social situations and I wish that I had someone to talk to.

Isn't it insane how big the world is yet how alone one can be? I don't know how to reach out to anyone, but I don't want to just reach out to anyone. And maybe I don't for fear that I will be disappointed by who I end up meeting.

Personality Disorder update

Haha. I remember in high school, I was so proud of myself that I had been "unnormal" and now it turns out I'm normal as fuck and I couldn't be happier.

Disorder	Rating
Paranoid Disorder:	Low
Schizoid Disorder:	Low
Schizotypal Disorder:	Low
Antisocial Disorder:	Low
Borderline Disorder:	Low
Histrionic Disorder:	Low
Narcissistic Disorder:	Low
Avoidant Disorder:	Low
Dependent Disorder:	Low
Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder:	Moderate
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Update

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