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This is my journey of finding out what life means for me and what I want to make of it. This is my journey of finding out who I was, who I am, and who I want to be. This is a collection of the neverending thoughts that plague my head. If you really want to know what I think of you, then you've come to the right place. Here, I won't hold back and you can't say I didn't warn you. There is a definite possibility that I may something that will hurt you. Your choice if you want to read on.

Tuesday, November 01, 2005

Kill

Well you're just across the street
Looks a mile to my feet
I wanna go to you

Funny how I'm nervous still
I've always been the easy kill
I guess I've always been

Could it be that everything goes round by chance?
Or only one way that it was always meant to be?
You kill me, you always know the perfect thing to say
I know what I should do, but I just can't walk away

I can picture your face well
From the bar in my hotel
I wish I'd go to you

I pick up put down the phone
Like your favorite Heatmiser song goes
It's just like being alone

Oh god, please don't tell me this has been in vain
I need answers for what all the waiting I've done means
You kill me you've got some nerve but can't face your mistakes
I know what I should do, but I just can't turn away

So go on, love
Leave while there's still hope for escape
Got to take what you can these days
There's so much ahead
And so much regret
I know what you wanna say
I know it but can't help feeling different, babe
I loved you and I should've said it but tell me just what has it ever meant?

I can't help it baby, this is who I am
I'm sorry but I can't just go turn off how I feel
You kill me, you fill me up, but just to watch me break
I know what I should do, but I just can't walk away

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That by far must be the best Jimmy Eat World song so far. I love the lyrics... every single line because it's so emotion filled and I can relate to every line in some form or other to some situation. I love Jimmy Eat World's lyrics. They're so good.

I've kind of been chasing after a guy for the past few weeks and I realized, he's not right for me. I can't help but still like him though, and I hate how I can't control my feelings like that... but I'll work on it because I need to get over him. Funny how I can't ever seem to choose the guys I like. Over the course of whenever school started, I've met, seen, and are friends with a lot of attractive guys, but funny thing is, I only like one of them. I don't understand it... but it's pissing me off. Well, now I have to find a way to get over this guy. This will be hard.

A lot of other thoughts are in my head, but I'll save it for another night.

1 Comments:

  • At 5:17 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said…

    How do you know that he's not right for you? I mean, feelings are usually there for a reason, whether you realise the reason or not.

    Haha, it's the same with me it seems, you want the one girl/guy you cant have, and you have no idea why since there are better people around... well, that's what happens to me.. -_-''
    Dunno how to help you get over a guy quickly, the fastest way [but not necessarily the best way] of getting over someone is to start liking someone else. It'll help if that person likes you a bit too..otherwise the same situation will happen all over again.

    Anyhoo..

    Jeff.

     

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