Better.
Today I gave Danny a ride home. He thought that I was angry at him because I was angry at someone else. I said that I wouldn't look at my yearbook signings until later, but I accidently... well, maybe it wasn't a complete accident, read a sentence near the end of his paragraph and it was that he wish that I would be friends with that person again. I feel like I owe it to Danny too and I guess, I just felt guilty. It sucks that it turned out the way it did and I guess the truth is that I just got tired... I'm tired of being the one that fixes things. I don't want this that much, but with Danny, I do. I want it for him... I feel that I owe it to him. So maybe I'll try... for him...
It's almost been a year since I first started writing in here. I never really wrote much or opened up that much in here and honestly, I dunno who the heck even reads this anymore. I guess I've been preferring xanga because some people comment there and I know people are reading it, but I dunno who reads this... especially since my updates are so sparse. Life has been funny... a lot of twists and surprises I guess. There's so much in my head that I need to clear out. I need to really start to plan things, but things are getting better... I can tell... cause I don't get that huge headache like before... now I get a semi huge headache.
My mom isn't supportive of me quitting my job, but she hasn't been too bad. I think she's starting to accept my final decision about quitting. I only have about $700 in the bank and about another $700 in my savings account that my mom said that she'll let me use because it will be frozen if I don't take the money out or deposit more money. God, I really hope I'm making the right decision. I hope I don't end up coming home without and a job and can't find one and end up screwing myself. I know if I didn't have my mom I would never do this so I'm really thankful. I think things are slowly figuring itself out... I hope I'm not speaking too soon. I need to learn about some other stuff and crap now so I better get going.
The best is yet to come.
It's almost been a year since I first started writing in here. I never really wrote much or opened up that much in here and honestly, I dunno who the heck even reads this anymore. I guess I've been preferring xanga because some people comment there and I know people are reading it, but I dunno who reads this... especially since my updates are so sparse. Life has been funny... a lot of twists and surprises I guess. There's so much in my head that I need to clear out. I need to really start to plan things, but things are getting better... I can tell... cause I don't get that huge headache like before... now I get a semi huge headache.
My mom isn't supportive of me quitting my job, but she hasn't been too bad. I think she's starting to accept my final decision about quitting. I only have about $700 in the bank and about another $700 in my savings account that my mom said that she'll let me use because it will be frozen if I don't take the money out or deposit more money. God, I really hope I'm making the right decision. I hope I don't end up coming home without and a job and can't find one and end up screwing myself. I know if I didn't have my mom I would never do this so I'm really thankful. I think things are slowly figuring itself out... I hope I'm not speaking too soon. I need to learn about some other stuff and crap now so I better get going.
The best is yet to come.
posted by Rukia @ 4:09 PM
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