Get by.

I decided that I'm not gonna change my URL. It's just kinda bothersome, but originally I wanted to change it because it used to remind me of someone that I didn't like thinking about, but I realized that if I didn't think about that person, it doesn't remind me of her/him anyway. I've still been a huge crazy emotional mess lately, but today I'm dealing with it alright.

Yesterday I had a talk with Zuri, which really helped me a lot because keeping emotions inside really messes me up bad. She helped me see a new perspective, which helped me so much, believe me. Now, I won't be dwelling about it in my head. I think what's wrong with me is that my thoughts are overpowering and overdominating my emotions and because of that I can't think logically. It's really bad because my bad thoughts create makes me feel things that aren't really true, but I can't shake it away. The worst part is, the longer I keep it inside, and the more I can't think logically, the worse I become. So I find that the best way now is to talk about it if something's bothering me. If I'm provided with logical thoughts, then I'm alright and that's enough to get by. God... but I just hate saying that... I mean, I want to live, not get by. It sucks ass.