Speeding on by.
It's been awhile since I last wrote in here. I seriously wonder who reads this anymore because my updates are so inconsistant. I just know for sure that Zuri reads this. So here's what's been going on with me lately.
This week I've gone to four very boring job orientations at Knott's, but at least I got paid for them. I have my on-the-job training next weekend. I guess I'm kinda looking forward to it, but not really. I met 3 really cool people at my first two orientations, but on the 3rd and 4th one we were seperated from each other. I really hope that I will see them again on the job.
I got rejected from UCLA and UCSD. I got into Davis, UCI, and UCSB. I haven't heard from Berkeley or my private schools. Getting rejected from UCSD makes this very easy for me to decide to go to UCI. My mom says that if I decide to go to UCI, then I should live at home, otherwise if I want to move out, I have to pay for everything myself. I really don't want to live at home, so I guess I'm going to live at the dorms. Either that or I'm going to look for someone I can roommate with in an apartment or something, but I haven't really asked anyone that would want to because I don't know anybody. *Sigh* I don't think anyone's interested anyway... so I guess I might have to resort to the dorms... where I'll dorm with someone I don't even know... It doesn't really bother me I guess.
Man, when I think about the things that are coming up... Spring break, Calculus camp, etc. I realize how fast this month's gonna end and how fast next month's gonna end... and then after that is AP testing. Then it's all over really. I won't really do anything in my classes and I'll be graduating and just like that, it's all gonna be over. It's really sad I guess, but whatever. I know I'll be glad for the most part. I'm going to miss the juniors, especially Jed. He doesn't know it, but he really got me through some tough times, especially last year when I was depressed and I had cut myself off from everybody. Somehow, he managed to stay. I like Jed, because he's different. People think he's perverted and he acts gay, but I like that about Jed, that he's honest and blunt and he's not afraid to be who he wants to be. I really admire that.
I really wished sometimes though that I could talk to everyone, but a lot of the times I get scared. I wish people could see that I want to reach out, but I just get scared. Maybe you don't want me to care. I guess I just stopped bothering. I mean well, but I guess that's not always enough. I just hope that you know I'm here... and I really mean that. I know it doesn't make it easier, but I just want you to know that I would never turn away from you if that's what you needed.
Oh yeah. Enrique's going to UCI! Whoo~
This week I've gone to four very boring job orientations at Knott's, but at least I got paid for them. I have my on-the-job training next weekend. I guess I'm kinda looking forward to it, but not really. I met 3 really cool people at my first two orientations, but on the 3rd and 4th one we were seperated from each other. I really hope that I will see them again on the job.
I got rejected from UCLA and UCSD. I got into Davis, UCI, and UCSB. I haven't heard from Berkeley or my private schools. Getting rejected from UCSD makes this very easy for me to decide to go to UCI. My mom says that if I decide to go to UCI, then I should live at home, otherwise if I want to move out, I have to pay for everything myself. I really don't want to live at home, so I guess I'm going to live at the dorms. Either that or I'm going to look for someone I can roommate with in an apartment or something, but I haven't really asked anyone that would want to because I don't know anybody. *Sigh* I don't think anyone's interested anyway... so I guess I might have to resort to the dorms... where I'll dorm with someone I don't even know... It doesn't really bother me I guess.
Man, when I think about the things that are coming up... Spring break, Calculus camp, etc. I realize how fast this month's gonna end and how fast next month's gonna end... and then after that is AP testing. Then it's all over really. I won't really do anything in my classes and I'll be graduating and just like that, it's all gonna be over. It's really sad I guess, but whatever. I know I'll be glad for the most part. I'm going to miss the juniors, especially Jed. He doesn't know it, but he really got me through some tough times, especially last year when I was depressed and I had cut myself off from everybody. Somehow, he managed to stay. I like Jed, because he's different. People think he's perverted and he acts gay, but I like that about Jed, that he's honest and blunt and he's not afraid to be who he wants to be. I really admire that.
I really wished sometimes though that I could talk to everyone, but a lot of the times I get scared. I wish people could see that I want to reach out, but I just get scared. Maybe you don't want me to care. I guess I just stopped bothering. I mean well, but I guess that's not always enough. I just hope that you know I'm here... and I really mean that. I know it doesn't make it easier, but I just want you to know that I would never turn away from you if that's what you needed.
Oh yeah. Enrique's going to UCI! Whoo~
posted by Rukia @ 5:40 PM
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