I'm okay.

Hmm... I read over what I said in my last entry that I wrote last night and I realized that I only think about the past when I'm sad... when I'm alone. It's true that I do want to live in the past, but I have to think of the good things I have now and just keep going. I mean, even in those happy moments of my past, I didn't really think that they would last forever... I mean, I guess I never really thought about it because I was so happy, but I knew they wouldn't last... and I guess if I don't get myself together, then I'm never going to be happy. I just wish I wasn't so alone all the time.

I hate abhor being by myself. I start thinking a lot... about anything, about everything. I take everything and blow it all out of proportion. I hate that about myself. If I could, I would always surround myself with people... no time to think, only live. I know for sure that if I don't marry when I'm older, I'm going to be living a depressing life... I hope this doesn't happen to me. I guess it's okay to daydream, but I can't do it forever.

I guess maybe that's why it's been so hard... these past some days, I have felt so alone. IMing is one thing, but to actually be in the presences of someone, that would really help. I can't wait for tomorrow. I am so ready to go back to school. It doesn't matter who I'm with... when I'm with someone, I'm not sad... well actually that's not all true, but it feels better to be with someone, yep.

I'm okay... yep. Things will be okay.