New perspective.

I got into a fender bender today, or rather the other person that hit me got into one. It was scary. The bastard that hit me ran off. I don't feel like talking about the details, so I'll leave it at that, unless someone really wants to know. I almost got into an accident while merging on the freeway... gah... today was horrible, kinda like last Saturday actually.

I've been too envolved in my own problems lately to really care or notice anyone else's. That's what happens when you have problems I guess, you don't notice other people's. I think I may have caused someone grief and for that I'm sorry. I guess I was kind of angry and took it out on this person. *Sigh* Well, I feel much better about everything now and the anger is relent.

Here's one thing that I have thought of in the past week though... I think I rush into things. I think I become too close with people too fast, and I end up getting hurt a lot, and I usually hurt the other person too, and ultimately, that hurts me. I can already name a couple of people at the top of my head that this has already happened with. I'm going to try not to open up anymore and just go with the flow. I'm going to try really hard to be more easy going. I don't like being serious all the time. And I'm not going to care... after this year, I won't even be around anymore, what's the point of caring?

I said that I would keep in touch with the seniors from this year, that we would hang out this summer and all that, but I haven't really tried. I thought I was going to watch a movie with some of them, but I found out that they already went without me. It figures. I'm not angry, just disappointed at the truth. It sucks that things had to end up this way, but I've got to just admit it, this is life. People are gonna come and go, so no more anger... I don't care what happens. In a year, none of this matters. I'll just sit back and see what happens... maybe things won't be so bad then.