Sad ending.

Today started off pretty good. It looked promising. I had a long chat with mom about our relationship and things like that. Every time she pointed out something, I had to look up to keep from crying, because she asked me these questions that just hurt so much to answer, because they were all true, and I think she finally knew.

The dance was pretty cool. I had a pretty okay time.

Then Gautam came to pick us up, and then Gautam seemed to be his usual self, but I noticed that lately I was getting bad vibes from Eric, and it turns out that he was mad at me about something from a week ago. I wish people would tell me these thing when they are wrong. Now, I feel fucking depressed. I want to cry... because I feel like a fucking failure again. I thought that people understood me. Eric said that he was too angry that day and shouldn't have told me... well, then he could've at least fucking told me the next day... instead of waiting till now... after I asked him. Now, I feel like a fucking idiot. I feel so dumb. I guess maybe if it wasn't Eric, it would be someone else that would tip me off into a brawl. I just want to cry. I'm so sick of everything and I feel like I'm under so much pressure. Once again, I feel like I fucking failed something. I fail at everything I do.